Posted by llrrrpp on June 16, 2006, at 22:30:50
In reply to Had a crisis at work, little long., posted by llrrrpp on June 16, 2006, at 22:21:53
I also wanted to mention that I have sent other emails expressing various psychological sorrows to various people this week. Not all of them have been responded to. I fear some of them may have been offensive. I shouldn't write e-mails when I'm in this state. I feel better to purge it- get the feelings off my chest. But then the feeling is replaced by anxiety and guilt. Who have I offended this time? Who thinks I'm psycho now? I have a really hard time with face-to-face communication about feelings. Most people who see me think I have no problems whatsoever (as long as I wear long sleeves) This is because I'm SOOOO good at putting on a happy face, and engaging in mindless small-talk. So, the inner pain and frustration build up, because I'm terrified that if I say something unpleasant, I will lose a buddy, or shock an acquaintance.
If I've offended you, or made you feel bad with one of my recent emails, it was because *I* was hurting. I'm too sensitive. I don't have good control of things right now. I wish I could take it back. I sincerely do.
yours,
-l
poster:llrrrpp
thread:657859
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