Posted by All Done on June 10, 2006, at 1:54:30
My T and I have been discussing "playing" in therapy. I don't think I ever really learned how to play when I was young and I think I test it out with him, ocassionally. Anyway, I don't remember how it came up, but two sessions ago, I told my T I wanted to play 20 Questions with him. He laughed a little nervously, but waited for my first question. That's when I asked him if he's ever had a dream about me. I immediately told him I knew he couldn't answer that and moved on to something else. No more questions.
So, this last session, he said he was thinking he hadn't "played the game by the rules". I told him I thought it was a bit unfair of me, kind of like asking someone who can't swim to play Marco Polo. But he mentioned it again and I took it as him saying we should try again. Maybe that wasn't what he was getting at. Maybe he didn't think I'd ask the same question, but I did. And I waited for an answer this time. All he came up with was that he didn't think he could answer that and he said he liked my analogy of Marco Polo. And he said he felt that was moving into a more interpersonal relationship and we shouldn't be looking at his psyche.
Again, I just moved on.
Then, I got my the car after the session and on the drive home, I got more and more upset. So, I called and left a message that I thought he pulled me back in only to slap me in the face with what I already knew and, might I add, rather effectively protected myself from the last time. It stung. It hurt. I also told him I thought it wasn't fair that my psyche has been analyzed all over the place and, while obviously that's what we're there for, it hurt that I was only asking for some insight into the probably tiny part of his psyche that has to do with me. Only he has the advantage of knowing what's going on in both of our minds in relation to me.
I know I was being irrational about the psyche part, but did he *have* to do that to me?
:-(
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