Posted by MandaFran on June 5, 2006, at 20:51:42
My therapist has left town for the week and of course I am not handling not being able to talk to him. He has given me his email address...(from the beginning when I started with him) but I dont want to email him while he is on vacation)..I need someone to talk to though. I am so lonely and every day I seem to be becoming more down on myself. I have been doing SO WELL lately with keeping a positive attitude but everything is getting harder for me. I feel so alone..Im single, I dont have many friends, when I get depressed I start to remember why I dont like myself as much as I should and it makes it harder for me to stay upbeat. I have done things in my past that I am never going to get over and this is just looming over my life. My T knows about this but because he is out of town and I cannot talk to him..Im kind of freaking out. Im not going to get in to see him until Wednesday of next week...and he told me I could go in and see his partner but I am not made of money and I would rather talk to him...One thing about me is I obsess waaay to much. As a matter of fact I am obsessing at this very moment ...but I just need a friend. I need someone to listen and talk to me. I have no one right now. Im so alone. My therapist emailed me a few mins. ago and told me he was happy I had found support through other people..(I didnt tell him I was on here because I was afraid he would try and find my posts...) but, he is happy that I am getting support from other people. My last email to him I was being really harsh about myself and he never responded to it..so I didnt know if he had gotten it or not...but he told me he had and now I am obsessing over what he is thinking about it. I cant win. I hate bringing up new problems to him because it always turns into a major problem and it makes me hate myself even more because i realize how messed up I really am. He uses reality therapy which is something that took me a LONG TIME to get used to...and I am still trying to get used to it...reality therapy can be really harsh....I just need help and support. I feel so alone. (Sorry I rambled but I love to type and when I type things my feelings and thoughts run out.....)
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thread:653394
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