Posted by sunnydays on April 19, 2006, at 18:37:33
In reply to Re: do you ever wish...? » sunnydays, posted by Poet on April 19, 2006, at 18:20:20
Thanks for responding.
> For awhile my T had me journaling. So I not only deny things I said, but things I wrote and let her read.
That's kind of like what I do. There are so many things I know quite well are true, but I will sit there and deny them. Or twist it around so that it couldn't *possibly* have been the person who did it's fault. It's not always necessarily my fault, but I usually don't like assigning blame to those who might deserve it.
> Problem is I contradict myself and my T always points it out. *That's not what you said a few minutes ago...* Or *since when?* It's okay that she's blunt with me, I am not easy to work with and when she's blunt I listen.
Yeah, me either. :) My T never lets me get away with it either.
> Me too, only I don't have the optimism that I have the potential to make it better. Though I've stuck it out in therapy for 3 1/2 years, so part of me must want to stop denying and dodging, right? Maybe?
Yeah, I think that you must still have some hope left in you somewhere. :) I'm trying to not to give up on my life quite yet because I'm still in college and I really don't want to believe that by now my life is already predetermined. I could see how maybe if you're older than me (I'm not sure) it might be harder to hold on to the optimism. Although optimism isn't the right word, because I'm definitely not an optimist. Thanks for posting your experience. I'm glad to know I'm not alone.
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