Posted by B2chica on March 28, 2006, at 8:59:01
In reply to What do you feel when you look back?, posted by orchid on March 27, 2006, at 18:45:09
i've looked back at my life more times these last two years than i ever have. normally i Want to forget growing up. the 'i was never a kid' attitude.
of course i remember old T's. they were key players in heavy issues.
i remember my first T as nice but not a good fit, helpful in that he introduced me to my now pdoc (fantastic), and i remember that when i tried to OD that he dropped me.
my recent ex-T i will remember forever and always. he was the perfect fit. the perfect therapist for me. even if he didn't i felt like he really cared. he was very professional, but didn't keep that wall between us like first T did. he let me a little into his life with little background and experiences in his life. i needed that to connect better. it made me feel more comfortable with him.
yes i read some of my post to him, and some responses. he was always amazed at what good advice i got here. i miss him terribly but am happy for him in his new home.
i'm still not comfortable with new T. partly cuz she's female, partly cuz i feel like i'm just a client/number to her. she goes from one px to the next with really no time in between. and she's pretty strict about her time.
but on her side, she's in the postion of rebound for me from the best T ever. so i know i just need to give our relationship time.bored s@cks but jobless is ok (if that's what you want) enjoy the time.
cares.
b2c.
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