Posted by Tanzanite on March 8, 2006, at 11:51:45
In reply to Rage, transparent dreams, etc... **triggers**?, posted by fairywings on March 8, 2006, at 1:35:40
I have a lot of moments of that self-loathing, not wanting to look in the mirror, and am fixated on how awful I look and it has brought me to tears. I think I may have body dysmorphic disorder or something and still need to talk to my therapist/psych clinician about this. I am sorry you are going through this and wish there was something I could say or do to help.
This may sound silly, but when I am very tired I have had the day dream thing happen and when I am driving and get home not even know how I got there. That scared the daylights out of me. I have a sleep disorder (sleep apnea), and I think certain of my meds play a part in this too. I don't know if this will help you or not, but at least I thought I would mention it.
I am so sorry you are having all this trouble expressing feelings and having rage towards yourself. Gosh, when so much is going on internally and externally though sometimes our minds and bodies just cannot handle the overload. I find myself forgetting things as well and basically I was told it was because of all the overwhelming things I am having to go through. I am not sure what you are going through, but I just had my 1st psychologist appt last week and that is what he said. I think all of these things you are going through are things you are not all alone in. I don't know if it is just part of the emotional health area or bigger than that, but just remember you are not all alone in this even though it is easy to feel alone. I wish I could answer this post better, but there are a lot of awesome people here who have a lot of great advice and understanding so I hope it will be of benefit to you. By the way, cool name. Peace and blessings to you and may your days be bright.
Tanzanite
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