Posted by Daisym on January 22, 2006, at 22:30:24
In reply to just feeling so ground down and hurting, posted by Racer on January 22, 2006, at 21:21:53
(((Racer)))
You are posting simply because you need someone to feel your pain and help hold you with it. I wish my arms were longer.
You aren't a failure. I KNOW this. I was thinking about you today when I read that pfinstegg's safety was her horse. I bet you really get that. Mine is my cat. I know you have a unique way with horses so no failure there.
I can relate to being the oldest, fattest one in the room. Happens to me a lot these days. But I doubt anyone else notices the way we notice. I doubt anyone cares the way we care. Don't buy into the shame. You are doing the best you can. That is all we can ask of ourselves.
I think therapy might be opening up lots of paths to pain, both emotional and physical. There are times when my chest hurts so much I think there must be something really wrong with me. But unfortunately (?) it is only the intensity of releasing so many old feelings that is making me hurt.
Hang in there. One day at a time. We haven't written you off and never will.
poster:Daisym
thread:601911
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