Posted by happyflower on January 21, 2006, at 8:46:37
In reply to Re: Synchronicity » happyflower, posted by daisym on January 19, 2006, at 12:08:52
Hey Daisy, it is always nice to hear from you. I have thought about the fate thing in having to do with me finding him because I needed him for therapy. I just wish he was more open to the fate thing so I could talk about it. He just doesn't want to go there, and it makes it hard to discuss what I am feeling. He said there is nothing I can say that will make him believe in fate. It almost feels like he will feel too vunerable if I start talking about and that is why he is avoiding the issue. I am not sure about fate either, but I am not closing my mind to it. He even started to downplay some of the coincedenes I mentioned. But it is also kinda ironic that he did this even after he said his birthday has also been on the superbowl and then the fact that my session was on his birthday, and I didn't know that. Well what the heck? I think he is in denial, maybe it isn't fate, but there are some weird coincedenses between us.
For instance, before I even knew he was into gardening, he asked me a question on day abou this blueberry bush he has (I was taking master gardening classes at the time). Well I could answer his question and I did. But was funny was an hour before my appointment that day, I was in my freezer and my kids left open a gallon sized ziploc bag of frozen blueberries. Well I went to pull out some hamburger and the bag of blueberries shifted and frozen blueberries fell out of the bag on the the floor right before my appointment. Did I know he had blueberry bushes? NO? Did I know he was going to ask me about them that day? No? Okay, maybe it is nothing, but I have tons of stories like this with him. It is weird.
I am a realist, I am a scientist, I believe in what can be proved. But this is something that I can't explain with fact, it is a feeling. How can I talk about this when my T is so closed minded about it? Is is because I am feeling it for him? If it was a feeling for someone else would he be more willing to talk about it? I just don't know.
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