Posted by fallsfall on January 20, 2006, at 16:44:43
Transference isn't just for therapy... And it isn't just for people... And it isn't just about love...
Last night I did a presentation for the library trustees at my library. I presented a Community Analysis that 3 other students and I had done for a class I took last semester. I thought it was important to do this presentation for them because they need to be able to accomplish some things (like get us a building) that haven't been possible so far. The Community Analysis is a first step in generating a well thought out plan for the future. The analysis recommends some changes in philosophy which I think will help get them past some sticky problems that they have been having.
The presentation went well. They were attentive, asked some good questions (and some easy ones, too!). But I left without the feeling that they would act on my recommendations. This is perfectly within their rights, but I think it would be a mistake.
This morning when I got up, I just wanted to take a nap (and I did take one before therapy at 9:15). This is a typical way for me to feel when I want to drop out of the world. The discussion in therapy migrated to two times in my past when different bosses humiliated me very publically when I had worked my hardest and done my very best. Even though the current situation is different from those times (I was responsible for things in the past - I have no responsibility to make my library successful, my bosses in the past had asked me to do the tasks - I took this on myself, I have no proof that they WON"T follow my advice, Other than ignoring my advice there is no way that they would humiliate me publically), I think that my feelings today date back to those times in my past.
So since I know this, aren't I supposed to start feeling better? Why can't I look at this realistically? Why am I still reliving the pain of the past, even though this situation is clearly different?
poster:fallsfall
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