Posted by James K on January 20, 2006, at 15:43:22
In reply to Re: Help, nightmares » James K, posted by Susan47 on January 20, 2006, at 4:04:13
>They tell us it is part of the process.
> James,> What's the process that you're referring to, what would that look like? Is it a process related to addiction, or recovery, or ...?
---When they tell us it is part of the process, sometimes I don't think they know what it is. But what it means to me is - There is something I'm used to doing (alcohol). It is hurting me and I've decided to stop. My brain is used to doing it and still wants to do it on some level.
So at night my subconscious is both remembering, wishing, and shaming me all at the same time.
This is a huge assumption to compare to you, so don't please don't take offense. The phone call part of your therapist situation could be like an addicts relation to the ritual of the addiction. So your dream could be compared to a use dream which is something that most recovering addicts are instantly familiar with.
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> In my dream, I remember every time I tried to dial, I was either unsuccessful in getting through or something bad would happen if I did, and there was always this incredible fear of public humiliation involved, I know that. And in my dream great trust was broken as well; there was a strong feeling of being laughed at and humiliated and scorned; I know that feeling really well from early early childhood. So I'm thinking, this T was probably some personification, what happened in early therapy with him must be retty much precisely correlated to something that happened in my early childhood; something that caused a nightmare at that time as well. And the residual feeling from the two nightmares is the same; one nightmare last night and another nightmare 42 years ago. This is really frustrating.
>--- I think all that part is very valid and probably a good analysis of exactly what is going on. I don't know if you know what happened in your past or you are assuming, but it makes sense. I think those feeling parts of the dream are slightly different than the dream itself (what I'm calling a use dream). I can relate very much to frustation dreams and humiliation dreams. Now I'm just talking about Me, not recovery talk. I believe healing can occur in dreams, and I also believe dreams can point us in the direction of the problem. Reacurring dreams are awful. like deja vu. I'm just rambling now, but I wanted to explain what I meant a little better.
I hope you find some peace and I think you should look at the dream, and if you have more, as a sign of where you are at right now, and I sincerly hope they don't become a problem in and of themselves.
James K
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