Posted by Pfinstegg on January 16, 2006, at 16:14:04
In reply to Re: Pfinstegg » Pfinstegg, posted by littleone on January 15, 2006, at 23:47:01
I've just had one session of thinking about a really safe person, and, at the same time, being asked to describe what that felt like in my body. First, she wanted me to hold the image of this person in my mind for about 10-15 seconds. After I got that, she asked me to describe as many parts of my body as possible- was there tension, aching, warmth, relaxation in my brain, chest, heart, belly, vagina, arms and legs? There was somethig of a mixture- not perfectly warm and relaxed, but not tense or cold either. We concentrated on keeping the picture (of my chosen person) in mind, and noting the good feelings, which were not perfect or complete.
But here's what totally amazed me. It's not something you have to remind yourself to do- like doing your exercises. It's DONE! It's just in you, and I find I am slightly more comfortable in the most stressful situations even after one session. I think it may be that she is helping to make some real changes in one's right hemisphere- beneath conscious awareness. I think I mentioned that she is a neuroscience expert. I don't have to make a special effort to recall what we did together- it's just in me. It's made me slightly less pain-filled and hypervigilant. I'm really looking forward to doing more of this.
You know, I love my analyst very much- and also hate and fear him, and sometimes wonder if he is even really there. As the work has gotten deeper, he has felt a lot more of my pain than he did in the beginning, and it does hurt him. We've talked about all of this a lot. I feel quite certain that we will find our way through this successfully, but I think it is going to help us both to have this additional therapist for a while. It's strange, I've had all this pain right from the beginning, but it was expressed more as suidical ideation, depression and anxiety. These have all gotten much less severe- but the feelings behind them are there in full force; they not only hurt me a lot- but him, too. I wish it weren't so, but maybe it couldn't be otherside.
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