Posted by andromeda on January 16, 2006, at 11:17:28
In reply to Re: How's this for a plan? » andromeda, posted by James K on January 16, 2006, at 0:13:37
> Hi, I don't know you yet, but since you asked I'm going to go ahead and discuss this.
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> I agree with above that 150 lamictal isn't really that strong.Anything above 150 just makes the depression worse and have tried to go up higher several times. I become hypomanic on antidepressants so maybe that is reason.
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> I really sympathize with the lack of "sucess" over the years. I'm just now beginning to deal with my stuff. I've used to fuel my anger, but I've never done whatever it is we're supposed tdo about it.Thank you. I am sorry you have to deal with it too.
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> I don't know what country you are in, or what part of the country, but before you have going into the hospital as part of a plan, or contigency, You need to make sure there are still some therapeutic hospitals in your area. The sad fact is I've had to go in too many times, and you don't really know what you're in for until it is too late. It just isn't like it used to be. There is often much less seperation between street people, drug addicts, men, women, neurotic, psychotic, violent,catatonic etc....I will ask my pdoc how it is set up and how it is now because 14 years is a long time ago. I will ask who I will be exposed to. I was exposed to all of the above my first hospital stay. I didn't feel unsafe and it was not extreme. I found it kind of interesting at some point. Maybe I was so messed up it didn't matter to me. I was never hurt.
> I just get scared of the idea of people who don't know what they're in for getting near some of the hospitals I have ended up in. I personally after last year don't consider it an option anymore. Meaning I will never go in voluntarily again. It is that bad. I'm in a major USA city.
Was your stay in a private hospital or was it a state run program? I definately would not go in the hospital ran by the state.
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> Take this for what it's worth. If it doesn't apply to you, or you already know about it, thats cool, I just want the warning out here for you.Thank you.
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> I've gone of meds. so many times. Meds suck, but unless you have access to a world class hospital, the current state of mental care sucks worse.Your right it all sucks but so does what I am doing now and I am one that keeps trying.
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> Ending up in an abusive situation won't help you deal with abuse. But I know some of your pain, and I hope you can find your way. I'm trying to find mine.I am assuming since I will go in voluntary I will be able to leave anytime I want. I don't know, will ask my pdoc. I can become just as mean as someone else if I am threatened. I don't know what to do now but I will ask around. I know other people who have been hospitalized and will talk to them too. I hope your journey does not last long. Thank you
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