Posted by annierose on December 26, 2005, at 20:58:30
In reply to Re: why do I go to T??? » annierose, posted by sleepygirl on December 26, 2005, at 19:34:50
My T is psychodynamic too, but she did suggest lieing on a couch might help me talk about those "hard to talk about" feelings. It took me 6 months just to decide to try lieing down. It's actually how I found babble --- my research if other people still did this. (Not too many, I found out).
After 2 weeks of my trial period, I told her even though it is so hard to close my eyes and relax, I did feel closer to her. I couldn't see her reaction, but I knew she was smiling from ear to ear.
I sometimes just bring up how I feel about her, but it's never an easy subject to start. I'm always glad I do. The hard sessions are the most rewarding (or can be). I wouldn't say "I'm use to it." It's still embarassing. I feel so vulnerable. I can't see her reaction to what I'm saying to judge her feelings. That makes it harder.
I'm not sure how different my therapy differs from psychoanalysis, although most go 4 to 5x per week. My T doesn't talk about herself or her personal life at all. I appreciate that, although I would love to know all the juicy details.
It's definitely a complicated relationship. But I am learning so much. And most importantly, I think I am a better mother because of it.
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