Posted by gardenergirl on December 15, 2005, at 6:49:24
In reply to Re: Feeling better. Now what? Help? » gardenergirl, posted by annierose on December 15, 2005, at 5:21:43
> I think it's great you moved into this new phase.
Thanks. Except it will lead to that other phase, the one that dare not speak it's name. ;) The one that either makes me cry or makes me cover my ears and go "la la la la la".
> I suffer less from depression, more from anxiety. So on my less-anxious days, I get anxious just thinking about what to talk about.
Don't you hate that?
> I hate beginning those sessions. Since I do close my eyes, I try to talk about whatever pops into my head even though it might sound trival. Sometimes it leads into a solid discussion, other times, it falls flat.
That takes a lot of trust and courage to just say whatever. I admit I can be a "blurter", but it's usually some way off on a tangent that only I can see kind of thing. And I do it much less in therapy than at home. Racer calls it conversational whiplash. :) My hubby tries hard to figure out where it comes from, poor man. What an impossible task.
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> Sometimes I might begin, "I have nothing on my mind to talk about today, is there something you want to talk about?"Oh, I just know he would not bite on that one. He's ask why I am pulling him into my stuff or why I need him to direct. Or would just look at me and raise his eyebrows without saying anything.
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> Is it scary to think you might be done with therapy? That could be a session or two or three."la la la la la la la" :-D
Actually, I've sort of felt recently that it's actually "better" to just live life and to be less introspective. I think that's a sign that I am moving away from therapy. But it's darned scary, and yes it will need many sessions. Yesterday I could not decide if I was missing him or missing therapy. I think it might have been him, but that's a scary way to think. Better to think it's about the process than about caring, right? grrrr
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> >>>I don't have a template or not a very defined and "safe" one for being well.<<<
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> Tell him that. There's good stuff in that statement.I can't take credit for that statement. That's his. But it definitely got me to thinking. He's pretty wise, isn't he? :)
Thanks for your help. Hope your sessions continue to be productive and that you have more anxiety-free days than the opposite.
gg
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