Posted by Tamar on December 11, 2005, at 16:44:14
In reply to My burn accident ****child abuse trigger*****, posted by happyflower on December 11, 2005, at 16:17:45
> I guess I feel like I can talk about this now, and in therapy this week. Well after having my burning accident this week, it triggered memories of my mother burning me with hot light bulbs because " I was a bad girl".
(((((Happyflower))))) What a terrible thing to experience.
> It hurt really bad, emotionally and espeically physically. I haven't told my T all my abuse, he knows some of the emotional stuff and the hitting with objects but not the burning stuff.
I think maybe you need to tell him *everything* if you can…
> Well since I have sleeping meds to help me sleep, there is a bad side, nightmares. I have been having nightmares the last couple of nights of memories of my mother burning me. But what is strange is her face fades in and out and alternates with my DH face.
I can imagine that your experience would trigger memories and nightmares associated with those memories.
And perhaps the appearance of your husband in these nightmares isn’t so strange… I can imagine you’re making a connection between your mother’s emotional abandonment and your husband’s emotional abandonment.
Does your husband know about the burning in your childhood? In an ideal world, he should be supportive at the moment; you should be able to talk to him about it and he should be able to comfort you. But since he’s been so distant, perhaps you find it difficult to imagine allowing yourself to be so vulnerable with him…
> So what does this mean, I am suffering from the beginnings of PTSD? with the nightmares and all.
Not necessarily. Sometimes nightmares are just nightmares, especially after a painful experience. On the other hand, if there are still issues you haven’t worked through, you might need to address them now. I do think it would be a good idea to talk to your therapist about all this. When do you see him?
Tamar
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