Posted by 10derHeart on November 17, 2005, at 21:55:54
In reply to Re: Apologies and questions, posted by annierose on November 17, 2005, at 19:42:26
I echo what everyone else has said. You have nothing to apologize for at all. You must always take care of yourself first, whatever that takes.
I know we can't decide for you, but I guess I'm leaning heavily toward you calling your T. At least maybe just call him, and go see him at least once, to see how that seems? Maybe you could speak on the phone about what you think you'd like to get out of resuming therapy with him, and see where he stands.
Then again, I know you had some painful transference, too. I suppose it would have to be a balance between tolerating more of that and the benefit you'd get out of therapy. Only you can know....and it probably doesn't look too clear to you either. It stinks we have to make decisions about helping our depression when we're depressed and not really up to making decisions! Grrr.
I personally think talking to a T. on a regular basis again might help a lot. I wonder if you're in some sort of pattern of highs and lows and just can't see some of the triggers without help. Or if just stuffing a lot of things inside and "soldiering on," so to speak, has been taking its toll.
Or I'm just way off. But something tells me talking to more than Babblers would really release some things and then lessen the depression.
I pray you feel better as soon as possible.
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