Posted by B2chica on November 9, 2005, at 11:59:09
In reply to Fears - listed, posted by rjlockhart on November 8, 2005, at 18:50:18
> Alright, for the first time im going to list all of them.
>
> 1. Fear of mentally deteriation
> 2. Fear of insanity
> 3. Fear of Losing Control- thoughts
> 4. Fear of developing horrible thoughts
> 5. Fear of having sudden confusion.
> 6. Fear of becoming psychotic (which before i have thought about becuase i have had cold thoughs towards my stepdad)
> 7. Fear of almost everything. If its going to be ok.
> 8. Fear of losing God.
>
> Thats it, thats what i think and worry about. I >sit and go into a mind set, hthen panic inside.Matt, i must agree with the others, 1)you are looking your fears straight on by putting them in a list, that lessens their hold on you and 2)you should make a positive list also.
but wanted to mention to you it seems there is one very common thread throughout all these fears of yours and that is the loss of control in one way or another.
i think things in your life must be like a whirlwind that "seems" to be taking over, maybe you feel out of control of your body or it's actions (chemically) and it's manifesting it in all these other ways. you work yourself into a frenzy about all the negative. i read once that if someone is REALLY aggitated or angry or panicky the best way to calm them down or soothe them is to grab a piece of paper and a pen/pencil and draw the number 8 without picking up the pencil. 8, over and over and over. give it a try.be assured that you are NOT out of control. YOU decide what medication to take or not take, you decide if you loose control physically (non of us have total control over our thoughts and that's ok. they're just thoughts- good and bad, it's what energizes us, what makes us creative and gives us each our own personalities. it's when you cross the line to act on those negative thoughts that isn't good)
and feel relieved inside that everyday they are working on new and better medication. and as long as you worry about your sanity be happy cuz that means you are sane. (just don't let it take over all your thoughts).
as for losing god, you must choose to do that. and just remember God never looses you. even if worse case scenario happens, you become psychotic and forget or reject god, technically you are not capable(in a state of mind) of truly rejecting or accepting god. and God will take over.
there is a place in his arms for EVERYONE.peace to you matt.
b2c.
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