Posted by Dinah on November 6, 2005, at 18:27:43
In reply to Re: Me four, posted by Annierose on November 6, 2005, at 16:09:45
It wasn't the stuff of legends. I think double sessions might be just too long. That level of intensity can only be sustained for at most a session and a half.
I can't say I wanted a good session, but in some ways it was very good.
It was so good to be talking to someone who understands me so well that I could talk the way I think, without interpreting it for outside my brain.
Someone who completely believed that T2 was indeed critical of my presentation, while managing to be completely uncritical and matter of fact about discussing why it might be.
Someone who understood it wasn't a therapist that I needed so much as a therapist/mommy, and who also understood that other therapists wouldn't know that, and normalizing my experiences with them.
He's more optimistic about our therapeutic future than I am, and he does have some contingency plans in case the precarious basis we see each other now collapses.
I came home and fell into one of the sleeps that I used to complain about, but felt soooo good after not having one for six weeks. Maybe they're not just "forgetting sleeps". Maybe they're "forgetting and restoring sleeps".
As to the actual content of the session, I don't remember.
Except that a couple of times he got mad, and did what I call "crossing his arms", which has nothing really to do with physically crossing his arms, but rather throwing up a wall. And when we talked about it, he pointed out that while he might do that, if I pointed it out to him he dropped the walls nearly as quickly as they went up.
And having that sort of discussion felt so reassuring.
I don't get it, I really don't. But I feel ok.
poster:Dinah
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