Posted by Dinah on November 3, 2005, at 8:48:51
In reply to Countdown, posted by Dinah on November 2, 2005, at 21:36:45
I'm surprised at how upset I am now that he's back in town. Somehow I managed to put him away in my mind except when I heard from him by email. Nothing's really changed. He just as well still be thousands of miles away. But the way I feel about it has changed.
That's a very bad sign. I thought I had begun to break this accursed dependence on a mother figure that just doesn't deserve it. Any more than my own mother deserved any reliance I put on her. I've always known this guy had a majorly unstable life. Why did I allow myself to get in this situation?
poster:Dinah
thread:574727
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20051025/msgs/574892.html