Posted by muffled on November 2, 2005, at 22:06:12
In reply to Re: ((((Muffled)))), posted by alexandra_k on November 2, 2005, at 21:11:23
> please try not to hurt our muffled
> (((Muffled)))
> i hope you manage to get some sleep...
> and wake up feeling a lot better.
>
> do you know what the anger is about?Muffled can't sleep. I think she's, I am mad cuz despite my best efforts I exposed myself to hurt. I wasn't gonna post here anything but nice things to others, then I can't be hurt but mebbe be good for others. But then I got seriously freaked about Dr. Bobs home page thing and I wanted it to be ok. But noone really knows do they.Dr. Bob is silent(or maybe on holiday?!!?:)) And It bothered me. And then I realize that I must have exposed myself despite meyself and then the pain comes and the kid just don't like that. I also told my T. in a fax about meeting a real little one very briefly yesterday.I named her and she was SO happy. She was so sweet and happy and it made me like myself more cuz she is me. I'm not very separated really. Shes gone now. Melded with me I hope. I dunno what T. will make of that. She hasn't sent me to p doc cuz I don't need meds and she doesn't want a label put on me to carry around. I am nervous about some stuff too. So I am trying to connect with the part of me that causes the ongoing unhappiness, and she come out all right. I want to tell her its ok. She doesn't have to be scared and angry and hurt and confused,that its ok now. But I guess I better wait another day. I am exposing myself. I'm not so sure.
You're post. I've read it 10x. It feels nice. I'm trying to let it be so.Thank you.
Muffled
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URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20051025/msgs/574746.html