Posted by Dinah on October 31, 2005, at 7:38:47
In reply to Re: Countdown » Dinah, posted by Pfinstegg on October 30, 2005, at 11:50:16
He's back to his home three hours away. I've been fighting the impulse to do a driveby of his local home to see if it's up for sale.
I have no idea what his future plans are, no idea of how often he can see me. Although at least for the next few months it's likely to be no more often than once a week unless I drive three hours. But now that he's in the area, I know it's possible (if not overly likely) that he could call me. He said before he left that if he was in town this week he could possibly see me before Sunday. And it bugs me that that thought fills me with anxiety. I've already decided to tell him that I'm pretty busy all week (which I am) and that if I've gone five weeks without seeing him, I can manage the few days more that would be remaining after my various engagements are passed (I'm booked for Tues. and Wed.). But it bugs me that I'm anxious about whether or not he will call, even if I know what he'll say. If he doesn't, I'll probably call Thurs. or Fri. to confirm our Sunday appt to make sure he hasn't forgotten, or decided to go to Abu Dhabi or something.
Even though at the present time I don't feel much of a connection to him, and can't quite figure out what I get from therapy or why I spend time and money on it, I still feel like that middle-school girl waiting by the phone. :(
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