Posted by happyflower on October 4, 2005, at 13:46:42
In reply to getting over 'abuse', posted by B2chica on October 4, 2005, at 12:50:10
AUUGGH! I just lost a long post I wrote to you. I will try again.
I have been were you are not too long ago. It seems to me that you are almost ready to admit that yes you were abused. I think at least for me, was a huge step. I didn't want to admit it because I didn't want to be seen as damaged goods. But admiting it, took a huge weight off my shoulders, but it was hard.Even though you are reliving so much pain right now, I think you are making progress. The next step for me was to accepting it , and moving on because the abuse didn't "own" me.
But I still get triggered now and then. This weekend there was this mom at the dollar store smacking her young child maybe 2 yrs old and then yelling at her to shut up and stop crying. I wanted to run to the child and pick her up and take her away from her monster. Seeing this stuff makes me angry and gives me a very upset feeling in the pit of my stomach.
I think all child abusers should be sent to an island to live with each other so they can experience what it feels like.
My heart goes out to you, it is very painful to remember this stuff. It must be something T 's do to desenatize us, which is common in child abuse cases. My T used EMDR, which was a lot less painful, but still hard.
My T says that reliving abuse is like throwing up, it is much harder coming back up then it was going down. Sorry for the grossness, my T specailizes in trama and he has a good way to make me understand it, even if it is gross. But heck abuse is gross.
Hang in there B2, write often, we care. It will get easier, just keep up the hard work.
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