Posted by alexandra_k on October 3, 2005, at 4:47:13
In reply to i miss my old t :-(, posted by alexandra_k on October 3, 2005, at 4:38:03
and i miss her so damned much
:-(
:-(
:-(and i never told her that i cared about her
that i appreciated her
that i liked her
that i didn't want her to go
that she helped mei never told her any of that
because i couldn't say that stuff back then
i couldn't
i couldn't say hardly anything
i just covered my face and tried to disappear through the floor much of the timeand was grumpy
and argumentative
and all those kinds of
f*cking back off lady
defenses
because i was so damned afraid.and so i never got the chance to say...
and i never did say
and perhaps i shouldn't...
that i haven't really been able to work with anyone since her
and that we just clicked.and it wasn't that she was so very non-judgemental
or anything...
it was more that she would bite her lip...
because she knew it was the way
she had faith that it was the way
and she was smart
and she was sharp
and i would really hate to get on her wrong side(ive heard stories about her and how she used to terrorise her students as a lecturer ha!)
but for some reason...
we just seemed to get on fine
though judging by my behaviour...
i don't think she got that.but...
i really should probably just let this go
it is just that i miss her so damned much
:-(
poster:alexandra_k
thread:562227
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20051001/msgs/562228.html