Posted by muffled on September 18, 2005, at 15:40:28
In reply to Re: :) Fairywings :) » muffled, posted by fairywings on September 18, 2005, at 14:46:37
its enough to gag a maggot!!!I'm not used to this. Its good for me.
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> well i don't know what's happened all of a sudden. i don't know if it was reading that book and then last week having my T talk about the inner child stuff. i was so freaked out when i was in my appt. thinking he knew. today i just feel like i'm completely losing it.I've felt that way too. Its freaky. Its emotions. Can you let them sort of slide off you? Can you tell yourself its ok to have these feelings? The feelings in of themselves are not harmful. Just scarey. These feelings are normal feelings, they are just extra strong right now. You're most definately not losing it. Your just having very strong emotions right now, they will subside. If you are able to can you notice how the levels go up and down. How sometimes you think this is it I'm not gonna make it, but then a little later, its not quite so stong? It usually only peaks for a little while. Don't try to run from the fear, just let it flow right on thru. Its natural, normal, can't hurt you. If its at all possible to do some simple things that'd be great. Can you walk properly (sometimes when I'm freaking I can't walk right?!). Could you walk with the kids? Could you focus on a easy book? As for the kids. I'd just tell mine I wasn't feeling well. So they wouldn't wonder why I was walking funny, or hunched over ,or distracted. Don't fret about childcare either. When I'm feeling bad, I don't cook or nothing(not that I do it much normally anyways!!!) I just hurl crackers at the kids and say eat up, thats supper. And thats okay. Crackers for dinner now and again is ok.
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> my husband is out of town, and i'm here with my kids, and i can't tell them, they would be scared to death. i'm having a lot of inner dialogue, and then i had to go to a wedding reception. i knew where the church was, and even though i hadn't been there in awhile, i knew the general direction, but i kept thinking i was going to get lost. it was awful. i feel so anxious. now my daughter wants to have friends over and i don't want anyone over, but it's for school.Is there any way your daughter could go to other persons house. Just tell them you have a migraine.
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> and then the teenager isn't as mad at me, but she's depressed, now i'm depressed, and the little one is sad. and it's just such a mess. i wish i'd never gone down this path. i hope it's worth it in the long run. i wish my husband were home, but he'd just worry, and there's nothing we can do i guess. i think i need to sleep.If you can sleep, thats great. I have found anxiety makes me very tired.
If posting helps, try that too. Babble away!
It'll be ok fairywings, it really will. It might just take a bit of time. But things will get better. :) :(
Muffled.
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