Posted by fairywings on September 18, 2005, at 14:46:37
In reply to :) Fairywings :), posted by muffled on September 18, 2005, at 10:22:36
> You are a very special person. I'm thinking of you. You are strong, I'm sure of that. You will be ok. Your posts sound coherant. I'm sorry its so hard. I can understand the fear. I get fearful too.:(
> Muffledthanks muffled,
well i don't know what's happened all of a sudden. i don't know if it was reading that book and then last week having my T talk about the inner child stuff. i was so freaked out when i was in my appt. thinking he knew. today i just feel like i'm completely losing it.
my husband is out of town, and i'm here with my kids, and i can't tell them, they would be scared to death. i'm having a lot of inner dialogue, and then i had to go to a wedding reception. i knew where the church was, and even though i hadn't been there in awhile, i knew the general direction, but i kept thinking i was going to get lost. it was awful. i feel so anxious. now my daughter wants to have friends over and i don't want anyone over, but it's for school.
and then the teenager isn't as mad at me, but she's depressed, now i'm depressed, and the little one is sad. and it's just such a mess. i wish i'd never gone down this path. i hope it's worth it in the long run. i wish my husband were home, but he'd just worry, and there's nothing we can do i guess. i think i need to sleep.
thanks muffled,
fw
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