Posted by muffled on September 15, 2005, at 22:06:41
I'm struggling with the whole concept. The whole T. relationship. Sometimes it feels like such a horrendous twisted parody of real life and it bothers me. I got to learn to trust, really truly trust I guess. Its just very hard to do when you been going at it alone for such a long time.
I can't quite trust my T. She has very careful boundaries. She won't phone back at certain times, no matter what, not even later if you leave a message. Its like she's there for me but she's not. I wonder if she has too much on her plate personally and even mentally too. It can't be easy being a T.
I very rarely call.
This is why a person just shouldn't get attached, cuz this is just what happens. Its like its all just proving a point to me. But maybe I'm just expecting too much? She's very good to work with in session. Especially since I don't communicate well.
I dunno. I'm just rambling cuz I got other things going on, I don't wish to say right now.
Thanks for listening to me whine!
Muffled
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