Posted by rjlockhart98 on September 12, 2005, at 19:53:13
I really dont know what to say, people dont know hwat to respond to my posts. THey dont know how.
I go through periods of intense alertness around 6:30pm it is almost near to a fight and flight response to something that has happened in the past. I dont know what happened. I get fear and intense alertness in reaction to it. No one knows what to say to this. It feels as if reality is drifting and i have to be on the emergency alert mode to hold on. What addiction to this almost everynight, in way it is a feeling of stableness to this feeling of stimulus, i am so alert i am ready for anything. It is similar to amphetamine.
If you have seen Alien (1979) with siqorney weaver, the last scene when she is trying shut off the self destruct sequence with this alien that just killed everyone on the ship loose, running through the hallways looking with almost insanity fear. This is similar to what i feel in intense periods.
I have gone through periods of going insane before, i went to psychiatric wards, they said i have symptoms of severe anxiety, neurosis. I do this almost as a ritual, adrenaline floods my body, im almost addicted to it.
What is happening.
Matt
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