Posted by Dinah on September 9, 2005, at 19:48:44
In reply to Re: Not really » Dinah, posted by JenStar on September 9, 2005, at 10:06:25
I've heard from my therapist. He has been very busy and under stress, and didn't get my emails because he doesn't have internet access right now.
However, he did remember me and did call me. He told me he that he has a way to arrange to see me soon, but that if he didn't call me in a few days to call him. That it wasn't a burden to him. And we talked about long term plans. It looks like I can still see him, although probably only once a week. Which wasn't enough before and won't be enough now, but better than nothing.
Jenstar, I think you're right. I think it is a matter of not wanting to accept that everything is just chance. I think that's why I'm so depressed and seriously anxious right now. I'm horribly and intensely aware that it is just a dice throw. High and dry, water to the eaves, it all depends on a couple of miles in the path of an enormous hurricane in a huge area. I wish I could believe in a benevolent protector for my home or my family. But I just don't think it works that way.
I think if it weren't for my therapist, I'd want to pack up and leave. Now that's the definition of dependence. :)
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