Posted by Dinah on September 8, 2005, at 6:51:17
In reply to Dinah, R U OK??, posted by LadyBug on September 7, 2005, at 9:33:32
Nothing's really changed. I am very fortunate in comparison with so many people, and I think I feel anxious and guilty about that. My house is ok, my husband has a job. I should be home before so many other people.
But I just feel horrible. I want to go back as soon as I can, which shouldn't be terribly terribly long, and take my son with me, even if I have to homeschool. Amd yet going back home also fills me with terror. We could so easily have been the ones with the faces on the news. Well, not exactly, because we do evacuate well before it's mandatory, but we could easily be the ones in St. Bernard and Lakeview and Plaquemines and New Orleans and the MS Gulf Coast who may never even be allowed or able to search through what's left of their homes. St. Bernard and Lakeview and Plaquemines are increasingly filling my thoughts. The areas that aren't covered much because that's not where the reporters are. And where the reporters are determines where the news is. Not entirely fair. There are probably a lot less people in immediate danger there. St. Bernard and Plaquemines had a pretty good percentage of evacuation.
I'm beginning to get red faced furious at the reports of miraculous misses and attributing them to God's will. Especially about miraculous misses of religious icons. Then I think of the people who died in a Chalmette nursing home and wondering if these people who are so joyous on the news really thought God would really care about a sanctuary or cross while simultaneously let His people drown. It was all just random. And those joyous survivors could be the less fortunate soon.
I'm back to feeling total despair for no particular reason at all.
I think it may be hard for me to post or even respond much until I'm in a better swing in this roller coaster. Everything feels so distant and unreal.
poster:Dinah
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