Posted by alexandra_k on September 8, 2005, at 20:35:01
In reply to Re: jenstar - damos, posted by alexandra_k on September 8, 2005, at 15:02:51
> i can't figure it out.
> i actually think... it can't be figured out.
> when this is going to happen
> why it happens
> what sets it offshame on me :-(
it is just that...
the behavioural analyses that my therapists found most satisfying never really satisfied me with respect to explanation, with respect to making sense of the phenomena.they just shuffle the explanandum back one step: and WHY did those factors affect me so significantly then whereas last time they were present in such combination they didn't affect me nearly as much?
or WHY was i able to see it that way last time whereas i was unable to see it that way this time?they couldn't answer me that...
> anything you want to put it down to -
> can happen and sometimes you are okay
> but other times you are not
> and why is it okay sometimes but not okay at others?and thats what i don't get...
why am i more affected sometimes and less affected at other times?
yet the same things are happening...
and it is pointless to say 'it is because you interpreted the significace of those things differently' unless you can say WHY i was able to interpret one way at one time and another way at another time.
because i do see that something is going wrong with my interpretation at times...
but i just can't seem to see it differently.and instead of criticising my interpretation by trying to find the logical errors and co
it isn't about that...
it is about adding more to the picture.
i think...
that most of what i said in my first post still stands...
its just that i need to consider other factors too.like... just having to do my best with what i have
like... other people being more likely to be sympathetic to my situation... especially if i am trying the best i can to get better and be more productive.
like... having faith that things do tend to have a knack of sorting themselves out.
i don't know.
it just doesn't seem so bad anymore...
but i don't know why i can take these points seriously today...
whereas when they occured to me yesterday...
they seemed to lack credability.
> and maybe it is just the topic
> just the suggestion that you can make sense of it
> that i might be able to predict my moods
> that i might be able to control them after all
> is so bloody terrifying because if it turns out to be true then ive been winding myself up all these years for no good reason.hmm. well... shame on me again...
:-(of course i do want to understand...
so long as understanding will help me
the trouble is...
i don't think understanding will help me...
because i think the causes lie on the sub-personal level and that doesn't help with respect to intentional explanation.
or at least the relation between them has to be clarified...so...
i get my period and what?
it just kind of inserts nasty thoughts into my head and stops me taking seriously the other factors?
hmm.
i don't understand how that is supposed to help...but strangely...
it does.
it does help.
because it means it really will pass in a day or two.
strange...
poster:alexandra_k
thread:552085
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