Posted by fairywings on August 29, 2005, at 11:24:01
In reply to no babies...., posted by B2chica on August 29, 2005, at 11:12:28
I'm sorry B2, this has to be a source of confusion for you, but having kids and being depressed is so so hard, esp. when they're babies and little. I was fine with my first 3, and then had pp depression with the 4th. With babies, I"m sure you know, you get no sleep. There's just nothing to compare it to. You're at the mercy of their cries. It's like being totally, overwhelmingly exhausted, and having someone bang a gong unrelentingly in your ear, and you know you have to get up and be attentive to them, despite the exhaustion. And you have to mirror their innocence and wonder in order for them to grow up happy and complete; that's so hard when you feel so awful yourself.
I hope you get to the point where you can feel the timing is right, your ready, and you can make it w/o the meds. It's just not fair is it? I'm so, so sorry, and I hope you start feeling better.fw
> it's weird cuz part of me is relieved and the other half (i think now larger half) is very hurt. technically i could do it, but i do trust my pdoc very very much and he wouldn't say that if it wasn't really important.
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> i'm just not getting any younger and i'm scared. i finally psyched myself up enough that i thought i could handle having children and now...i think that's why i've been going back a little into lethargic dpression, no energy, don't care, sleep all the time.
> just had to share.
> don't need reply's.
> thanks for listening.
> b2c.
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