Posted by kerria on August 28, 2005, at 23:42:31
In reply to Re: A lovely and resilient plant kerria, posted by Pfinstegg on August 28, 2005, at 16:23:42
Hi Pfinstegg,
Thank you so much for your positive words. Yes, i think my T really cares and has hope we can get better.
i think T stays the same in his beliefs but parts see him in different ways. He does get angry though and there have been some very hard times with T in the past, times that i still don't understand why he acted as he did. It had a lasting negative effect on my ability to trust him. i try not to think of those times.
Once - about two years ago, i did try to leave him. i was successful in leaving for a month. Then my little ones inside went back ONE time to say 'goodbye' to T1 and the new T terminated me as a patient. i came home from work one day to find a letter from T2 saying that i was no longer his patient- he would have nothing to do with me- and sent copies to T1 and my psychiatrist. we were devastated. i couldn't even receive the letter. i mailed it back to him because i was so upset. There was no warning.
see- i can't leave.i think that it was all for the best but i feel that T2 was heartless to just send an impersonal letter after all the struggle of therapy with a new T . Why wouldn't he understand that i needed to say 'good bye' once?
Some people think that persons with severe dissociative disorders don't hurt the same as 'real ' people do.
That therapist- T2 was on the ISSD list. Not the friendliest bunch of people i've found - that's my experience.
There are some therapists and drs that treat persons with DID as sub-human. They will cover their true beliefs with language like "We must, to do our best work, (?) recognize our limitations as therapists... etc, "
Some at the top of that organization think that some with DID are incurable and don't think that time should be wasted trying to treat them. There's so much arrogance between the lines on some of the writing on their website. TRIGGER- It hurts to read there.
At least my T is hopeful that there's a possibility that we can get better, thankfully.
Take care, Pfinstegg.
Thank you,
kerria
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