Posted by kerria on August 18, 2005, at 23:32:54
In reply to Re: Missed appt with T :( Anyone with DID to help?, posted by jadah on August 18, 2005, at 20:21:37
Hi Jadah,
Yes, i read most of "First Person Plural" by C. West and thought it was good but so confusing for me to follow - i was first dx and switching a lot/ For my parts to read about someone else's parts was so confusing. It also bothered me because my experience is so different. i felt so depressed. Cameron had the perfect therapist who was ALWAYS there for him- mine almost never is. She was always happy to help at any time it seemed. i struggle with my T caring if i live or die. His wife was always supportive and tried to understand DID - not my experience with my h. all the time. It was so discouraging to read because everything is so much more difficult IRL for me. My parts also are not as easy to know or try to begin communication with. We're a bunch of opposites. He had parts that were tough to have but they always listened- i can't get a word through. My T has to talk to them for me.
i brought that book back to the library right away.
It's a good book for people who want to understand about what DID is like in the best case senario.i was left wondering what did i ever do to have this? Everything is so hard and i can't even get anyone to help me :(
oh well.Yes- i do need parts now in order to live becasue my parts are outside- not inside parts. i need to switch into them to go to work, relationships are had by different parts and other activities - church, club a part belongs to, interests, school- are all done by different parts and they don't share information. There's a lot of separateness that T is trying to help because much of my time is lost everyday and everything is a confusing mess right now.
It's so hard to begin. Cameron could just talk to parts- but i can't get through most of the time. only certain parts can talk to each other and the parts that have the main roles in my life are separated.
It's hard to explain and live.
i'm worried that i won't get better because i never heard about anyone as separate as i am. Whenever i went for treatment in a hospital for pple with DID i was always the worst one. My T is very experienced with DID - works in a hospital that treats it and i think i'm the most severe case he's seen also. i'm afraid we won't make it. It's hard coming and having no one understand or identify. i don't know where to start with this project. My H even threw my journal away- gave it to a charity place to resell. He's not very supportive of my struggle to get better .
so different than Cameron's wife. That book should have a warning. It's definately the best case senario. It doesn't always happen like that.Take care,
kerria
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