Posted by ghost on August 17, 2005, at 20:04:34
In reply to floating away to the 'farm', posted by B2chica on August 17, 2005, at 11:40:37
b2c,
i almost checked myself into the hospital last week. i'd had it. i was sick of all the BS and sick of feeling like crap on a stick and just sick of everyone. i longed for regular meals, and regular schedules, and 15 minute checks. i wanted to hurt myself and wanted someone to make sure i didn't because i didn't trust myself to do it. i'd just had a fight with some good friends and i felt like i had no one who cared. but the people at the hospital care, because they have to.
anyhow. i ramble.
yes. i know what it's like. but you HAVE to keep going. i don't think your be-all, end-all fate is that of a mental hospital. it might be a stop on the way but you are destined for far greater things.
i had to force myself to get back on a regular schedule (for me that helps a lot, even just showering and eating at teh same time every day helps), go to my doctor's appointment (which was good timing as i'd stopped taking my meds, too, and ended up being really sick from one of them, which is partly why i felt so bad), and just to kind of take the time to make sure i did what i was supposed to do, if that makes sense.
i dunno if any of this will help. but it's what helped me and i felt similar to what you talked about.
is it a full moon or something?
hang in there, chica.
<3
ghost
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