Posted by kerria on August 5, 2005, at 13:26:42
In reply to Re: referred Again » kerria, posted by cricket on August 4, 2005, at 8:30:49
Thanks Cricket, for posting. My T said yesterday that he was happy that i'm feeling some empathy towards my parts and i promised that i would work on communication during next week- when T is on vacation.
on Monday i have to have to nerve block done by the dr that gave me such a hard time with withdrawing me suddenly from the medicine that worked for pain, putting me through terrible pain because he said he can't prescribe opioids any more. It's all that works though. The pain managgement dr did prescribe 100mg kadien, twice a day with breakthrough IR that's just starting to work- i guess that it takes time to have a level that works-it wasn't working before at all and the dr didn't care.
i hope that the nerve block works and that somehow my parts don't hold it so much against him that they won't be able to have the nerve block, like the last time, when my little came out and cried uncontrolably when he said 'needle.' That Dr made me feel so terrible about it- it felt so bad because i couldn't help it and my psychiatrist isn't helping as much as i thought.
i wish it weren't so difficult to have people help me. All my drs doubt me but i know that my pain is physical and severe.monday 's surgery will be so hard but we're in so much pain it feels that we don't have a choice. i have to be a these dr's mercy- especially when they don't believe me.
All day i'm searching for information on the possibilities of the cause of the pain- it maay be related to a fungicide exposure at my job. i was spraying in a greenhouse with respirator and tvk suit and boots/gloves but the suit became ripped in the back and pesticide went into the suit and onto my clothes as i was bending down to make a hose connection on an adjacent bench. It saturated the area where i have terrible chronic pain. It's impossible to find any information at all about weather the chemical is the cause of the pain. i wonder if it is because there seems to be no other answer.
still trying to find information.It is a very good turn - the effect that all this is having on the way i feel about my parts, anyways. Maybe now i can work on those 'communication papers' that T gave to me.
Thanks, Cricket. i hope that you're ok and that everything is going well.
Take care,
kerria
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