Posted by Sonya on August 4, 2005, at 14:12:33
This is a brain dump....
Here's the deal. I have a good life. Wonderful husband, good grown kids, good finances. Nothing's wrong. But I have anxiety that is getting out of control. My dilemma...my pdoc won't prescribe sedatives or antidepressants. I tend to abuse benzos and AD's make me rapid cycle (thus the diagnosis of bipolar II). I'm now off past meds of Depakote and reducing Seroquel to almost nil now. And the anxiety has returned big time. Should I try hard to wait it out and let my brain calm down or call my pdoc and go back on other drugs? I gained weight on the drugs and really hoped to lose the weight but now I'm not sure I can handle the way I'm feeling. I'm getting that detached/unreal feeling which I know is a component of anxiety. My husband just asked me if I'm feeling suicidal again. He's very worried because I OD'd last fall. I told him if I feel that way again, I'll go straight to the hospital, but I don't know. That wasn't something I want to repeat, feeling so out of control with someone else calling the shots and feeling so helpless. I'm afraid of ever being there again.
I know it's the alcohol talking. I probably shouldn't be on here just now.
poster:Sonya
thread:537495
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