Posted by cricket on August 4, 2005, at 12:28:29
In reply to I'm So Done!!! (trigger), posted by LadyBug on August 2, 2005, at 16:04:44
Hi Ladybug,
You've gotten a lot of good advice.
Just to add to the chorus. It is hard, it is painful.
The rewards? Ask me on a different day and I might say that there are none.
But somehow or other, and it's usually after weeks and weeks of heart wrenching sessions where I do nothing but cry or sit in sullen silence, some tiny little shift seems to have occurred inside me. A little crack where I can glimpse the slightest shimmer of something authentic and real. It makes me feel different. More vulnerable and lonely. But also more alive and true to whatever is deep inside.
I know I'm talking abstractly and I'm not really making any sense. But have you ever had a glimpse like that, just enough to keep you going?
I hope so. I hope you reconsider. Maybe a bit of a vacation just to test the waters as others suggest?
poster:cricket
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