Posted by LadyBug on August 4, 2005, at 0:24:06
In reply to Re: I'm So Done!!! (trigger) » LadyBug, posted by gardenergirl on August 3, 2005, at 21:18:59
Thanks gg
I am in such a painful place. My T. has been so good to me. I've been seeing her for over 8 years. I know we were talking about love yesterday and I turned it around to feeling hurt. I know I need to see her or at least talk to her. I wasn't planning on ending our work but when I left yesterday I felt as though I feel more pain than good when I leave my appointments. It's been this way since day one. I'm the failure. She has been wonderful to me. I can't seem to figure out what is going on inside of me that makes me feel anger and pain.
I'm so afraid to call and leave her a voice mail. I'm afraid to write to her, because she likes to talk face to face and not have me force things on her by mail. I'm so afraid of her being mad at me. I'm torn. I always felt I was too broken to fix. I believe this now more than ever. I've failed. I've grown a ton, I will give myself credit for that. I just can't seem to stay in a good place for too long.
Thanks for the reply and for your thoughts. I admire you and what you have to say.
LadyBug
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