Posted by daisym on July 30, 2005, at 21:00:26
In reply to Re: Wanting a mommy (long) trigger » daisym, posted by crushedout on July 30, 2005, at 18:02:25
****daisy, i don't know what to say. you've definitely touched a chord in me. i'm sad. i'm also relieved that someone else, as lovable as yourself, feels the way i do. it makes me feel less ashamed. i feel like maybe i can tell my t these feelings the way you told yours.****
I hope you can crushed, it was worth pushing through to this. And thanks for saying I'm loveable, though I don't think I am. I've been thinking about this a lot. Do you think that because I don't like to be touched that people think I'm cold and unfeeling? I also think because I'm quick to jump in and solve the problem, that I don't make room for other people's emotions. So again, they think I don't have any. It is so hard for me to navigate this stuff.
****but i have the same questions as you do, and no answers. how do you learn to live with this want, knowing that you are all grown up and your t is not going to take you in his lap and take care of you.****
I don't know crushed. But Falls keeps telling me that I don't have to have the answers before I get to therapy, it is the process of therapy that is supposed to help me find them. I'll make a pact with you, OK? (spit on your wrist -- OK, ready? -- shake!) If I get the answer or answers, I PROMISE to share. You have to promise too. We'll have a sleep over and tell all the secrets. Together we can do it. Let's be formidable!
****i have tears rolling down my cheeks, but it kind of feels ok.****
I know those kind of tears. Such a release. But still...I wish I could wipe them for you and rock you. Close you eyes and feel me with you, I'm right there.
Gentle hugs to you.
Daisy
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