Posted by spalding on July 24, 2005, at 13:39:30
In reply to I am so angry and sad, posted by happyflower on July 24, 2005, at 9:54:49
happyflower...
As antigua said, you ARE so brave. Who knows why this stuff comes up when it does, but I'm so glad you're working through it. I'm glad you have a session tomorrow. Working out, crying...well, to me it sounds like a positive start.
You sound like a wonderful mother. Your children are so lucky. Be so proud of yourself...heck, I'M proud of you!
I did not experience overt abuse in my family, but there was a lot of subtle psychological abuse. My mom would always say to me, "If I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't have had kids." Very much like what you said in your first few posts, "How can someone do that? Say that? To a child? To her face?" My T. says there are a lot of things I chose not to understand, and now I'm trying to understand them. But this one, I'm stuck.
My pdoc suggested a book to me, "The Narcissistic Family," which talks about "overt and covert" abuse. It's an eye-opener.
You are doing such good work. Give those kids another hug and let it come back to you.
Take good care, you are so strong.
spalding
> I don't know what is wrong with me but I am so mad and sad about what happened to me. Why now? I have no idea. I don't know if it is doing all the good stuff for my self lately made me realize on how I was not really living before. My parents really messed me up and I guess I am now seeing it more than ever. I guess I feel like I am grieving my childhood.
> I worked out today, hard, but it didn't take away the anger. I have been crying too, and it is not helping.
> I am glad I have a session tommorow with my T. It is going to be one emotional day for me, I hope he can help me through this. He hasn't ever seen me this upset before. What my parents did was so evil and just wrong. I need to get over this if it is possiable. :(
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