Posted by B2chica on July 22, 2005, at 9:44:24
In reply to Re: Power of Honesty --- (Full On Trigger) Long » daisym, posted by annierose on July 22, 2005, at 7:27:05
(((daisy)))
i wish i had known you were feeling this way. last december was SO bad for me i set a death date of Feb. 27th. i did that cuz i wanted to act then and there but my pdoc's words echoed in my head "you have a lot of impulsivity" so i took out the impulse by setting a date far off. far off enough to line up bills, finances, make a plan and prepare just right. the week before my anxiety started to show severely, at the time i was seeing a temp therapist and thanks to babble people i chose to write a letter stating how i felt. i had two more appts with her i called and cancelled the one and then called back and cancelled the last one but i had appt with pdoc on friday and promised myself i would tell him of my plan before i acted.
luckily the T told my pdoc that wed. and that day she called and pretty much insisted that i come in WITH my husband.
well, they decided to hospitalize me. i know for a fact had i not be hospitalized i would infact had gone through with the plan.i see this know as why it's SO important to be open with you T. some can't handle a lot of Suicide talk, if you are and they can't it's time to move on. cuz they'll be so afraid both for you AND for themselves and that will cloud their judgement and not be able to help you.
long story short.
i love you. from a long time ago you really helped me to communicate with my t, and work through some troubling issues.
you were SO much help to me and such an asset on this board.
even though this isn't IRL, and it's not a Professional Psych place. It's even better cuz we can speak freely. PLEASE take advantage of that.i thank you for being so strong and holding on (and YES you are strong) believe it or not...you are.
with care
b2c.
tha
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