Posted by cricket on July 20, 2005, at 6:34:51
In reply to I just quit therapy, posted by cricket on July 19, 2005, at 15:18:10
Thanks Ladybug, Dinah, Poet
I am ambivalent. Rationally everything tells me to stop going but emotionally. Well, emotionally I will just miss him.
But I know that someone else could make such better use of his time. Someone with more potential, someone younger, someone smarter. So quitting feels like the noble thing to do. But it is painful. I haven't done anything good or right in this lifetime and this feels like the opportunity.
I didn't feel such a strong urge to quit when I felt like he hated me and I was still taking up his precious time then, but it felt more like I was getting what I deserved.
But now that I feel like he doesn't hate me and just wants to help me I can't stand the thought of being there. I arrive later and later to every session. I'm down to half hour sessions and I still can't stand it.
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