Posted by Jen Star on July 12, 2005, at 19:18:39
In reply to I'm sick, posted by Dinah on July 12, 2005, at 5:00:42
hi Dinah,
I'm sorry and I understand it, because I often feel the same way. I'm afraid to enjoy my accomplishments because maybe they will get taken away. I'm afraid to exult in my youth and beauty (such as it is, hahaha) because I will get old and wrinkled. I'm afraid to embrace my husband with zeal because he might get hit by a bus tomorrow. I'm afraid...of so many things. I'm afriad of loss, too. And I don't know how to deal with it, either!So I do the best I can -- I do embrace my husband, I do try to enjoy life. Even though there is always the niggling idea in the back of my mind, like a little tiny devil, reminding me with glee that this will all soon disappear. I'm usually proud of myself if I'm able to enjoy stuff despite my fears!
I hope you can too.
You're not alone...I don't know if it helps any, but I sympathize.JenStar
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