Posted by Tamar on July 8, 2005, at 18:26:11
In reply to If I could ever write it, would someone read it??, posted by jammerlich on July 7, 2005, at 23:44:41
> I'm still torturing myself over this letter to my former therapist. It has been so excruciating to try and write. One sentence and I am reduced to tears.
I'm so sorry you're finding it so difficult. I can imagine it's very tough. You probably want to be able to express everything and it's so hard to find any words at all... even harder to find the right words.
> At the rate I'm going, it could be weeks before I finish it, but would any of you be willing to look it over for me when the day comes? A lot is riding on this so I care very much how I come across. It's so hard to find a balance. I want to be reasonable but not so reasonable that it seems like I don't care. And I want to impart how important this all is to me without seeming manipulative or too needy. It's so hard. I'm afraid every word is going to be analyzed.
Exactly.
> For some reason, I'm not comfortable with the idea of posting it here. I'm not exactly sure why. Maybe I'm worried my former T or someone else who knows me reads here?? I'd be more comfortable babble mailing.
I can understand that. It's a public forum and anyone could be reading. A letter to your T is a private thing.
> Again, it's not even finished yet. I guess I'm hoping that having someone willing to read it and give me feedback will help me get a move on and not be so scared.
I'd be happy to read it if you want to share it with me. I teach literature, so I do a lot of working with texts. I can usually point to the different ways people might read something. Feel free to babblemail me anytime.
Tamar
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