I Feel Like a Slut

Posted by Anon2005 on July 8, 2005, at 16:08:15

Now that I'm down to 1 AD instead of 2, I have been feeling really crappy. Recently my doc finally agreed with me that my meds were making me hypomanic and causing me to act out in ways I never would do. The therapist I had before I started seeing my doc knew of my actions and never said anything about it. It's been a couple of years.
I feel horribly about the number of men I've slept with (15) and I know I wouldn't have slept with so many if I hadn't been acting out. I waited until I was 20 and in love to lose my virginity. I feel disgusting and like a pariah in comparison to my friends.
My doc still doesn't diagnose me as BPD even though she agrees I exhibit a number of symptoms and could benefit from DBT. I know that sexual impulsivity is part of BPD as well.
I just feel unloved and have given myself to these men and the only one of them who loved me physically abused me.

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I Feel Like a Slut Anon2005 7/8/05
Re: I Feel Like a Slut » Anon2005 Tamar 7/8/05
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Re: I Feel Like a Slut » Anon2005 daisym 7/8/05
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Re: I Feel Like a Slut » alexandra_k Susan47 7/15/05
Thanks guys Anon2005 7/18/05
Re: Thanks guys » Anon2005 Susan47 7/19/05

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