Posted by alexandra_k on June 28, 2005, at 5:13:15
In reply to More Like GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! » alexandra_k, posted by Damos on June 28, 2005, at 1:39:49
I'm not mad. Really. I think I was there for an instant. But not now. He is busy. I get that. I do. Generally... I can be patient. It is just that I have learned from experience that they are typically so busy that they don't notice my being patient. They just forget all about me.
And I can understand that. I mean some people need to be checked up on. Because if they aren't looked after then they are a serious danger to other people. You need to worry about them. Chase up people on treatment orders. Whereas with me... With me... The only person I'm in danger of hurting is myself. And I have a tendancy to do that with or without a clinician. And no pattern is apparant from my file. Though I could probably tell them... I could... But it doesn't matter because heads don't roll unless someone hurts someone else and then they should have done something.
I'm sorry.
How to get out of this head space...
I really didn't think this was a good idea...
But I've started it now
:-(
I think I'm going to take tomorrow off.
Lie in bed and cry all day.
And the best thing about those kind of decisions is that once you really have decided and you are able to do it - the feeling passes.I wish I hadn't gone back here.
And t can't see me for 2 weeks cause she is inundated with people wanting compassionate consideration for their exams / courses.I'll be ok.
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