Posted by pinkeye on June 27, 2005, at 16:35:32
In reply to Re: Long rambling about csa **trigger**, posted by happyflower on June 27, 2005, at 16:28:34
Thanks HF -- I think there is a light bulb atleast somewhere trying to start :-)
Maybe I should print this post and give it to my current T.. She would be really be happy that she did her job.. This is what she has been trying to make me understand all this year - that I correlate many men very much with my father. And that I don't take and ask for respect from men as an adult women should - that I put up with anything (not beign wrote back, or being beaten up, or being treated poorly).. It is almost as if I expect guys to treat me like that - without respect. Really, my ex T didn't reply very frequently at all - if I had had more self respect, I would have said long back I needed more support, I am going to someone here where I can meet face to face everyweek, instead of just trying to cling on to him. And also when my husband beat me, I would have said stop. And I also would have given more respect for my hsuband's desires. And I would have been able to acknowledge him and be open with him instead of constantly fantasizing for someone who is not available to me.
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