Posted by pinkeye on June 23, 2005, at 15:54:27
In reply to Closing with my current T as well. 5 more sessions, posted by pinkeye on June 23, 2005, at 13:18:07
My mind is still full with my ex T and that termination, that I feel I don't even have the bandwith to assess myself of how I would react to another termination now.
Partly, I feel it won't be that much of an issue either way, because I was cautious enough to not get attached to her from the beginning. And she didn't encourage it either. So I am hoping that it won't be an issue and I should be able to say GoodBye effortlessly.
But part of me feels that she has helped me a lot, and I would like to atleast update her about what is happening with me - but I really don't think she wants to keep in touch. So I feel if she gives me her email id, then I would feel obligated to write to her if anything happens, or if I feel bad I might be tempted to ask her for suggestions, and she may not reply. Then I will have to go through the same torture of what happened with my ex T again, and I feel it might be better to just close down alltogether and close the door firmly. Ideally I would like to keep in touch with her - maybe write once in 6 months or so, and would like to receive a brief reply from her too - but if she hasn't done it with any patient of hers for 20 years, I am pretty sure she won't be willing to make an exception in my case.
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