Posted by daisym on June 19, 2005, at 0:57:29
In reply to Re: Daisy, how are you today?, posted by gardenergirl on June 18, 2005, at 18:48:10
>>>>I do think that there is grief involved about giving up the hope for having a normal relationshop with your parents. I do think you have to grieve that, and the injuries of the past in order to move on. I'm not sure I would call that forgiveness, but it does lead to constructing a new meaning for yourself.
<<<<I do think there is grief involved; a lot actually. We've talked in therapy about whether this is depression or grief. Often times it does feel like someone or something has died, it is that intense. And I think the process is similar to the grief process of losing a loved one. You go through similar stages.
I'm still in the stage of wanting what I know I can't have. I don't know how to get past this. I feel stuck at this junction. And it doesn't feel like something you can transfer to someone else. And it sucks so bad that you can't ever, ever go back and MAKE your parents create safety for you. I feel like something was stolen from me. I guess it was -- trust and innocence.
And as I write that, I feel dramatic and stupid. So many more people have had much worse lives and trauma than I have. I need to get over myself.
Thank you for the energy waves. I feel them washing over me.
Hugs, Daisy
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