Posted by Shortelise on June 18, 2005, at 16:17:43
In reply to wrote and sent this letter to T today, posted by Shortelise on June 18, 2005, at 1:22:10
Thank you all so much.
Here's what I've done since I left therapy on Thursday:
I came home, told my husband the whole thing, cried and cried. Then I go into bed for about an hour and thought about the various ways there are of successfully killing one's self. I have a favourite, and I thought about it, thought it trhough carefully, planned how I would do it, then decided that I needed some help so called out to my husband who was downstairs. I told him I needed help getting up - not physically - but he did physically help me up, and we went for a walk, and talked some more, worked in the garden, and it was ok.
I wrote to you guys, and read your responses.
I slogged through the mess that is my emotional self, read through your notes, and tried to figure things out enough to write to my T. And I wrote, as you saw. And now I feel better. I think he will understand, I think he'll help.
But if he doesn't, if I am all wrong as I fear I might be, and he throws me back into the sea, I will swim.
Thanks so very much for your kind compassion. You guys save me.
ShortE
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